Drops In The River

So today is Friday and it's time for the weekend. Today was relatively easy going for me, and I have been happy most of today. Getting home and just...relaxing. It's a good feeling after a long day. I've been working, singing, going to the store, doing laundry...I feel accomplished today. And I deserve it after everything...that has happened to me.

One thing I definitely deserved was what happened to me, only a few minutes ago from writing this blog. In my last blog I mentioned I wished I could go out in the rain. Well...I did :)

Today I had made strong plans to come home and play The Legend of Zelda: Phantom Hourglass on my 3DS but that wasn't the case as it sometimes pans out. I have been watching old videos of Radiohead in all their glory, singing The Bends and a few other songs until it began to rain. I had already had my MacBook hooked up to our speakers so I had been blasting music anyways. So I decided to play another song that reminded me of the rain. But it wasn't from a video game. Yet again...Fleet Foxes. They are true artists and I have become addicted to this kind truth.

My first attempt of going outside, I found the rain to be abnormally colder than I normally find it to be. I went back inside for a moment...and then I forced myself out into by running outside and almost slipping on the pavement. The combination of the music and the sound and feeling of the rain led me to stretch my arms out and bask in the rain. 

There is no other love than the love that something like the rain can give. No other comfort like the brush of the wind against my face. No other assurance than the cold, wet stone beneath my feet. 

"Allur heimurinn óskýr

nema þú stendur"

-sigur rós

Eyes On Me

It's been a long day for me today. Now it's late. and it's raining kind off hard. But I've missed it like this. I love this rain. I've needed this rain for the longest while.

The first Final Fantasy game I ever got to play was Final Fantasy VIII (8 for those who don't know Roman Numerals very well.) Of course, with many games, I have sometimes only played them for the music. Of course, I love the gameplay but the music was a HUGE plus to me. and I truly enjoyed it. I think I played it when I was 7 or 8...

Later in my early teens, I was introduced to the internet (I love technology) and I was introduced to a piano cover of Eyes On Me from the game. and I always could hear rain in my head, as a sort of way to relax me. and it did. and I'm listening to it now while it's raining. 

I wish it were a Friday night so I could run out in the rain right now and bask in the glory of it all. 

My wind chimes are also going at it tonight 

Meadowlark

Silence is an ever bitter sound to hear, even if you are alone or with people surrounding you. Either way, there's always something there to remind you of other lives and other hearts.

I've not listened to this song quite enough but from listening to it, I have come to have a strong love for the lyrics. Beautiful and remind me of better things yet to come.

With all that has happened, this song was the first one that popped up in my head for this; a friend of mine commit suicide fairly recently. I wasn't very close to him nor did I ever know him to be the kind of person to do what he did but I can tell you he was a kind hearted man and good company to be around. Everyone loved him. I was quite shattered to hear the news of what had happened. Rest in peace Randy. I dedicate this song to you and your family. You're in a better place now.

"Meadowlark, fly your way down

I hold a cornucopia and a golden crown

For you to wear upon your fleecy down

My meadowlark, sing to me

Hummingbird, just let me dive

Inside the broken ovals of your olive eyes

I do believe you gave it your best try

My hummingbird, sing to me

My hummingbird, sing to me

Don't believe a word that I haven't heard

Little children laughing at the boys and girls

The meadowlark singing to you each and every day

The arc light on the hillside and the market in the hay"

-Fleet Foxes

I Might Be Wrong

Radiohead is one of the few bands I love for their attitude. I love certain bands for different things, (all have one thing in common, the music itself.) but for Radiohead it's a plus with their attitude about not giving a f**k about anyone or anything. Honestly, I admire that. You don't see them whining about how they don't get to go back stage to see their favorite artist. (Miley Cyrus did this with Radiohead and claimed that she would "ruin them" just because they wouldn't let her come back stage to meet them. what a laugh!)

Fairly recently I just got back into Radiohead. I mostly dropped out because of my phase with Fleet Foxes was FINALLY dying out. I decided to listen to their album The Bends all the way through...and Jeebus. I have a love/hate relationship with that album.

Not only with that album but with a number of other songs on other albums have done this thing to me, where it brings back such nostalgia from the 1990's that it makes me sick to the stomach. I both love and hate this feeling. It kind of reminds me of high school. Or what my idea of high school used to be. and my God, it kills me. (Note, I was born in 1992, but for some reason I feel like I've heard some of these songs before, even in my strictly Christian home. Radiohead has been around since before I was born. The Bends came out in 1995.)

I love Radiohead. I cannot deny that. I'm still listening to a few more of their songs which I've come to love recently, like Bulletproof...I Wish I Was, The Bends, Street Spirit (Fade Out), and some others. I ordered a Radiohead T-Shirt which looks like this:

(This comes from their song Nude off their album In Rainbows. That's a good album as well) I'm pretty excited about getting to wear it. In the mean time, I'm hoping I know enough of their songs to even consider myself a real fan of theirs. I have this weird belief about how I should go about with the amount of songs I like by a band to really consider them a favorite or consider myself a fan. I just don't want to waste my time or money either. 

I'm expecting a Fleet Foxes T-Shirt as well...At the rate I'm going, I am a huge fan of them.