I cannot begin to tell you how long it's been. I have dealt with a lot of things as of recently. This past year has been unbelievably rough. Heartache and anxiety have taken their tole on me...but I'm still here. I still had my music but...it was still undoubtedly real what I went through. The good part was that I was so emotionally tired that it didn't hurt as much. I'm doing better than I thought I would. Even when I think that I should be angry or should ask questions, I remind myself it wouldn't have mattered in the end. I'm here now and that's enough for me to get on with my life.
It's been the Autumn season and it's been so beautiful and comforting. I want to go for a walk in this lovely weather soon. Even if it has been raining a lot, even rain is beautiful. I'll never understand why people find rain so gloomy. Then again, I'm one of those people who embrace the sad parts of life, even if I don't enjoy them, I try my best to get something out of them and learn from them. I embrace rain because I know I wouldn't be here if the water didn't trickle on the plants that live and give off the oxygen that I breathe.
I've not gotten into very much new music. Last summer I went on a whole Daft Punk phase because of their album Random Access Memories. I adore that album. The lyrics, composition...Daft Punk made my summer of 2013 the most romantic summer of my life...and each time now that I listen to them...I've noticed how each of their songs I listen to, changes my way of feeling or remembrance of a particular memory. How I need that. I need that more than words can say. That is what makes me feel alive. That is what gets me through my life.
But I did not write this new blog just to tell you about Daft Punk (which, I am still an avid fan of them now) So much can speak to you in a song, even if it's a guitar, a piano, a voice...any musical instrument can speak to you in such a strange way...and today I thought I would share this song.
I get this song in my head quite often, especially after all the emotional turmoil. I'm tired. I am beyond exhausted. And when I get physically tired, I remember this song and it has such a tired melody. Beautifully and warmly put into my heart to embrace. Like rain. Raining down on me, I can accept being tired. I'm going to be okay.
