Jealous Guy

Lately the Beatles have been on my mind. Even when they went on to be on their own, it's been particularly strange to think they separated and began to suck. With the exception with a few actually good songs. Such as this one.



Now other than playing Twilight Princess and apologizing to all the innocent chickens (cocaos or whatever if you get techinical about Zelda) and start singing off key "I didn't mean to hurt you!" This is a beautiful song in it's entirety.

The first time I heard this song, I remember I was sitting in the back of my dad's scion when he was taking me to my mother's one night. He had taken out the front seat so he could clean it, so there was no way I could sit in the front, unless I had sat on the floor of the car. Dangerous. Anywho, my dad was playing John Lennon's Imagine album which at the time, I had never gotten to listen to so this was an opportunity for me. I had only heard Imagine so you can Imagine what it must have been like for me to hear some of the other songs (see what I did there? no, wait...nevermind...) Some of the songs were okay. I don't remember them. But then Jealous Guy came on.

I can't remember if there were any tears shed or not that night. But I do remember feeling a great deal of sadness and heartbreak. Feeling it for my family who have been through hardships and heartbreaks of heir own, my friends and their heartbreaks and lastly....my own. It was then I saw why and how beautiful this song really was.

Tonight I feel a bit sad and down. And I listened to this song. and in a way...it reassures me that I wasn't the only one who made a foolish mistake in a relationship, ya know? John wasn't the best husband to begin with and wasn't the best father but even though this is to his second wife Yoko, he was making up for what he did, admitting his mistakes. This is the sort of thing every man ought to do. But it's not only the men who are guilty. Women are too. I am too.

So...
I didn't mean to hurt you.
I'm sorry that I made you cry.
I didn't want to hurt you.
I'm just a jealous girl.

If you could ever find it in your heart to understand I'm just going through some emotions right now, I'm truly sorry. I love you so much and I don't want to lose you. You are my best friend, and I have come to realize, I don't think I could live without you. I could never, ever hate you. You are and always will be, Sweetness to me.
Debbie