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It's February. I've been sick. Sinus infection or allergies, cold or flu, I don't know and I don't really care. I just want to get better. I've been feeling miserable.





A few days ago I arrived at my mom's house early in the morning. My mom had gone to work and her husband was asleep in bed. I was left to go to sleep or browse the internet, whatever my choice. I was feeling miserable. I was in a worse stage of my feeling like crap so I mostly wanted to sleep. I couldn't though. I was kind of hungry.

As always, my mother never really has things I find appetizing. I don't mean to be picky but come on, tv dinners? stupid health beneficial drinks? chocolate breakfast bars? No thank you. (yes, I skip on on the chocolate. actually those bars in particular hurt my teeth. they are hard to chew.)

Finding nothing and kind of disappointed, I turned to my refrigerator like most hopeless, idiots do when they think food will suddenly appear there. There was something however that I missed the first time that I checked it. A box of strawberries. Deep, red and so sweet looking. "I think I'll have one and head to bed." I took the box and opened it, got the most delicious one I spotted and washed it and took a bite. The sweetness of this strawberry made me feel so alive. Better than I had been. I didn't go to bed like I said. I took another strawberry and had more of these scrumptious beauties. They brought me so much comfort that I needed. and then I went to bed. and I slept, a restful sleep. Since then whenever I was feeling cruddy, I went downstairs and got me a few strawberries to make me feel better.

Lately I've been getting into this band called The Xx. and this song got in my head tonight. I kind of need a little bit of hope. a little bit of comfort. I want more strawberries. Tonight, this is my strawberry. This song kind of brings me the same feeling of relief and comfort that I needed that one morning. I didn't expect this but...for now, I need a strawberry.

They are so beautiful.