The Cure For Pain

I woke up yesterday to my dad kissing me on the forehead. Anytime I sleep on the couch, this has always been his routine. I had also asked him to wake me up before he left so this was him waking me up.

I didn't immediately get up. I just laid there for awhile. I stared and watched as the light from outside tried to seep in from whatever cracks and crannies and windows we had. I always keep it dark in the living room. I just always like it that way. I feel safer.

This song came into my head. I was just lying there and thinking and everything came flooding to me that I would be okay.

If anyone has heard of Switchfoot or is a big fan, I think you will know who Jon Foreman is. A few years back, I remember hearing about how Jon Foreman was coming out with a series of albums that went along with the seasons. I had wanted these but never got to buy them. Money was always scarce for me then. and normally my policy back then when I bought an album was that I needed to at least have heard of two or more songs and like them if I wanted to buy an album. this past year...I finally got ahold of them. and I only let myself listen to the album that goes with the season it currently is. and I have forgotten to do that with Spring and Summer and Winter but I did it with Fall. and I remember this song. and I couldn't help thinking how beautiful it is. It's encouraging to me. It lets me know I'm not the only one struggling.

I know I've only talked about how certain songs reassure me but I guess the reason why I've been doing that is because I just want people to find as much reassurance and comfort as I have. I still stumble with my troubles and worries but so far music has been the number one thing that keeps me going. Certain songs especially. and I want to share with someone some hope. and I'm going to keep doing that.