There Goes The Fear Again

Here's another one of those hopeful songs. Whether what I'm feeling now is a false hope or genuine or not, I will never be too sure of until sometime in the future. I want this to be a good hope. The best kind of hope there can be.

I first heard this song from the movie 500 Days of Summer. The scene where Summer and Tom are running and fooling around through Ikea is where I first heard this beautiful song. I had heard of Doves before however. From a different soundtrack. but from a book. that's for another time though.

I thought this song was always very bright and cheerful. As if, it is actually okay to go out and have fun and be random. It reassures me I can be a child anytime I like. Not immature...childlike. Having fun. I don't think adults even try to have fun anymore. Or in any case, they don't see how doing something they've never done before can be fun. Doing something they think would be embarrassing. Adults sicken me sometimes, with their high morals and strict rules.

In any case, one thing i've always wanted to do...but I know would probably be illegal and probably be dangerous...is at night, on the high way, stick half my body out the window while blasting this song. Reaching my hands to the blasting, cold winds and feeling my hair flap in the wind...it seems to me it would be the best feeling in the world. I'm going to one day. The only reason why I haven't is because I want people to know my plan before I do it.

This had been a secret for years. The first person I told was my dad. and it was only the other night.